Looking back to move forward

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happy new year all…..

I guess its a bit too late for that

Usually people are excited when their birthday slowly inches in even when there people who don’t really celebrate it, when your family/ friends have done the effort of doing something special on your birthday, you can’t help but smile.

I look at my birthday as my track record of what I have done artistically as this year’s birthday wasn’t something I really looked forward to, for the past two years my majelah has been on a snail pace (I bet the snail would have beaten me  at this point), barely posted any sort of artwork nor have I drawn anything, its as if the last 7-8 years of my life meant nothing to me because when I will look at my sketchpads, I will drawings of an aspiring artist who wants to do something big, I didn’t want to look at those sketchpads because I used to be that aspiring artist who wanted to do major things for the majelah, so I avoided my sketchpads the entire day until I decided to face the truth and accept that I have fail to do what I planned, to accept that the majelah project meant nothing to me.

Its funny how the human memory works, if you put enough emotion into one action, everything during that moment will be recorded, that’s what happened to me when I was looking at those sketchpads(and I forgot I had a lot of them), memories and emotions connected to those memories started to rush through me as if though I was living them again, the more I looked at my older sketchpads, the more I realized how much I have progress and I was able to find small incorrect mistakes the young artistic me would have never find. Until it hit me, maybe I was doing this all wrong, I shouldn’t be wasting my birthday on things I failed to do, I should look at things I was able to succeed and learn from it, it is true that the majelah hasn’t progressed at all but that doesn’t mean I don’t care for it, I am using a 3d modeling software to make a 3d model of the setting the characters are in, I am constantly thinking and rethinking how the story is supposed to follow and fine tuning it.

This birthday has made me learn that yes we should look and learn from our failures and refine ourselves but to also look at what we have managed to succeed. Out of all the pronouns I can think of the one that fits the most is “With failure comes development, with patience comes wisdom”.

Phoenolf out (O_O)/

RISING ARTIST’S NOTE BLOG THING #16

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I wish you all a happy new year

Aside from all the greatest things that happened, I am kinda disappointed in myself mainly because I didn’t really have done much drawing even though I have a lot of free time, this goes down to my tendency to procrastinate and how easily I get distracted…..its funny how working on something for 7 years still isn’t enough to make me spend the majority of my time on it.

out of all the things I want to achieve, this majelah project is on the highest not because I have to but because I want to and I hope this coming new year, I will force myself to finish what I started.

MY のLIFE, 1ST BEAT, PART #5 (YEAAAAAHHHH!!!!!!)

after a long time of silence, I finnaly managed to finish the page (I really don’t care about the spelling mistake :D)

the people and the other stuff in the background  took most of my time

the people and the other stuff in the background took most of my time

RISING ARTIST’S NOTE BLOG THING #15

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dear internet,

1- I am still alive

2- I just cut my hair and beard and I feel FABULOUS

3- on with the blog

sorry for my inactivity in the last weeks but university has taken up the majority of my time (with projects, test and assignments) but anyway, I was planning originally that it would at least take a couple of months to finish the first issue of my majelah (that was in january mind you,) and up until now, still not much of progress.

even though the majelah is going at a snail’s pace (I think the snail would be faster than this though >_<), I rediscovered an animation program called Blender, this jewel in some way is exercising my creativity and imagination (I am making a game as we speak but its in its alpha alpha alpha beta beta fetus stages), even I like traditional art and not depending on technology for things, it doesn’t hurt to try things. I have been using Blender for quite a while now, I would say that it does in a way help you exercise imagination because when you draw, you have to depend on your imagination and experience to judge a number of things (scale of objects, distance and the likes), using blender in a way helps me slowly build memory of how things should be and if they look appropriate.

I like to think that even though I am not drawing, I am still using my creative mind to make wacky things (I might use blender for anatomy and such)

bottom line, don’t be afraid to try things other than drawing or whatever your hobby is, it might help you in the long run.

phoenolf out